Saturday, January 19, 2013

thought

Thoughts gushing thru the river of thoughts at the moments. I'm confused right now over so many thought to thought thoughts.

Well, firstly I was dumbfounded by my friend's question, "How do u define mature and childish". I was caught surprised, but managed to gave a answer which after a while, doesn't seems right to me. So i gave it a long thought whilst walking home. 

What is mature? Really.. i have no idea. even still now. I wouldn't say I'm not childish but I wouldn't say I'm mature. It's so hard to define this term.

I think it's childish to speak behind's one back.. then again, how do you define "speaking behind's one back"? Speaking bad of your friend? How about discussing about your friend with another friend who knows that friend too? Is that considered "speaking behind's one back"?

Sometimes when I hear my friends discuss about other friends, I wondered, "is that considered bad mouthing?" Which is part of the reason why I tend to be wary of people who discuss about other friends.. unless I'm absolutely certain that the discussion is harmless... which is another definition omg. definition definition everywhere~ 

Next, so am i mature if i know the path I'm going to take? But I met so many people who seem almost certain of their path only to change it at last minute.. is that still considered mature? I've got a friend who planned to work for 1 year .. oh wait, i think i can define the term now!

Mature, is a thought, a decision that people agrees with and will support you with it.

Is it considered okay? well, it sounds okay to me though! haha 


Thursday, January 10, 2013

so.. I was procrastinating (coursework ruins life, -kidding-) and saw this post whereby the shelter manager wrote a letter urging people not to breed puppies nor send your dog to the shelter. I was close to tears and full of emotions after reading it. Which is why, I'm here blogging why I had a dog when I was 22. And it's not like I love dogs all along or something. I have friends asking me why the sudden urge, and my list for adopting gets pretty lengthy and boring (ah well) so basically, I do not get to finish my reasons and the topic has already changed to how cute pika is lololol, and all the stupid things she did but it's okay, I'm stupid, so we are fine. xD but anyways, I would like to list all the reasons to finally get a dog and many more thoughts that ran throught my minds after pika came into this family.

I still remember the day when I was working in the video shop, a lady came to find Alex, my colleague and ask if she wants a puppy which might be put to sleep if no one would take the puppy home. So Alex, who can't foster or adopt it because of her two aggressive dogs, push it to me in an attempt to shake the lady off, asking me to take care of it, and I stupidly got trapped in it without thinking much. (I realized it was a grave mistake only after I settled down that day -.- FUCK was the word of that day, ah, but well well. xD) 

Anyway, so I heard the story from the lady once more and called my parents immediately informing them of the situation and my parents agreed. So Alex started to tell me how easy it is to take care of a dog, she is damn good with words so I'm not surprised she make everything sounds really easy, and am not surprised I will be brought over by her. Intelligent level too different already, obviously I'm at the low end. -.- 

But anyway meanwhile, the lady constantly delay my meeting with the dog, and I was really preparing myself for the dogs. So after a few months without news, I was already overwhelmed with the idea of having a dog at home. During that few months, I constantly ask myself if I'm ready to save a life. And I realise yes, I'm ready, my family is ready too. Things has stabilized for my family. My sister and I are no longer kids they have to worry about, basically, we are their biggest worries. Haha. Financial wise, I'm sure I can cope with that, so that isn't a problem too. Time wise, university life has been relaxing so far so time is not an issue too. money, time, environment, everything is a pass go!

So as times goes by and I have yet to see the dog, I kind of give up on depending on the lady and besides I would prefer a pure breed xD (do not judge me, i have a hard time cos I'm constantly judging myself over this.) Since I'm looking at adoption, I knew puppies are out of my range because no one will give up puppies for adoption, besides.. I'm glad i didn't adopt puppies because I'm sure I can't handle their constant peeing, whining, crying, teething period and I'm afraid I don't have the ability to train them properly. 

I almost adopt a miniature pinscher but I didn't because my parents talked sense into me. It is a old tortured dog with a lot of health issue. My mother urge me not to take it because I'm not well-to-do (i still got a study loan from my aunt) and she knew that it's gonna be way too hard on me because of the frequent trips to the clinic and the dog wouldn't be close to us because it is way too scare of people already. 

So I carry on with my search and was close to adopting a cairn terrier of 3 year old and has to be given up because the owner's daughter is allergic to dog fur. My parents thinks it's okay but if possible don't dopt because they are not yet prepared to have a dog in our family. Well, anyway, I was susposed to pick up the cairn terrier after I returned from Genting. When I returned from Genting, the owner told me her father decided to keep the dog. I was so disappointed but i think this is better. Looking back right now, it's as if destiny has path set for me already.

The next one was Pika, the lucky dog destined to be a part of my family. I was surfing adpost and came across this Japanese spitz which is 9 months old, female, and hs a adoption fee of $500. I admit I wanted a dog so badly by this point of time already, that I'm willing to accept adoption fee as long as it's reasonable. 

So I googled about Japanese spitz, and it is way too cute! Next is it's character and then the ailments it is prone to. Both seems good. Next is my parents, I show it to my parents and my mum just went SO CUTE. lol. Well, anything with long fur, my parents will like them. haha. So I sms the number and asked about the adoption fee. to my pleasant surprise, adoption fee is free as long as it's the right owner.

I told my parents and they backed out last minute but they did say if I really bring it back, they can't do anything either. And I told Ellin, Yuling about it and we decided to pick Pika up on Saturday with See Theng too.

Before the day I'm susposed to pick Pika up, I didn't get my hopes up, instead I'm ready to face the fact that it might fail halfway, because it sounds too good to be true! But yeap, things went well. :) and Pika was really overwhelming to people! 

I remember when I first saw Pika. I was somehow disappointed because her fur looks so thin, as in I an see her back turning bald, and her tail's end was bitten by herself until there's blood. :( I was expecting a japanese spitz I've seen in google images. But I took her anyway, determined to make her look something like those in google images. xD besides, if I don't take her.. it's possible SPCA will be where she is heading to soon. :(

So the owner's husband knew that I'm going to take Pika and went home to take her documents and belongings, while leaving Pika with me. Pika drag me everywhere with her leash! And even poop on the grass when I have nothing with me to clean it up -.- And she is friendly, very very friendly. She shower her licks all over us, lick our legs and hands when she saw us. No sign of aggression at all. 

After the husband gave me the documents and everything, Ellin drove us to Pasir Ris farmway to get all her necesserities like play pen, brush. I didn't want to buy the toys for pika from there because I'm sure I can get a toy from any toy shop near my house but Yuling and See Theng insist on buying a ball for Pika as a gift. They were worried I wouldn't give anything to Pika to play. xD

After buying the food and others, Ellin drove us to Choa Chu Kang to visit the vet for a checkup. She prescribe medicines susposedly good for Pika's skin (but uhm i see no use) but Pika continues to bite her tails, which is quite heart pain to see her doing so.

Next destination would be to my home where Ellin drop us down while she drove home for something else. Well, things are pretty much a blur to me at home because it all past too fast. I just remember I didn't do anything well. bathing pika also cannot, fierce to her also not fierce. -.- stressed ah stressed. I do remember my mum said pika is not to be allowed out of the playpen as long as she is at home. (but now... hmmm hahaha)

Before soon, Ellin came to my house after she finished her stuff, and brought Brise with her. Not a good idea. Pika was too interested in Brise but Brise is scared of her. I find it funny at that time, but looking back now.. I pity Brise. ><

After Ellin, Yuling and SeeTheng went home and it's time to sleep, Pika barked in her playpen. She barked the whole night through, much to my frustration because I was already drained from handling her the whole day. I had thoughts like CAN I TAKE THIS EVERY NIGHT. MAYBE I'M NOT PREPARED FOR IT. many thoughts, many many thoughts. eh. negative thoughts. aigo.

Ah so that's about her with regards to Pika's first day with me. :)

oh wow, i just spend hours doing this essay which is unrelated to coursework. swee. and I only managed to from pre-Pika era to first day of Pika-era. even more swee!

Friday, February 24, 2012

Angst, the type of angst where it makes no sense, and hence, hello blogging. It make no sense, because i am not involved in it, i am a outsider, but it is enough to ruin my day.

Conceitedness. A level higher above confidence. to be discovered only after months of acquaintances after the constant tainting of my favorite social media hangout. It seems that conceitedness always come with a gifted tongue.

Seems to me some misunderstandings happen, and now it erupts into a child war by vocabulary-rich yet senseless kids. seriously. I am lame, but that? it's lamer. sounds cheesy, but i believe to be acquaintances out of the many possible combinations we are open to, is worth cherishing it, not to mention there's a possibility of friendship. lol, that sounds funny, but heck! Well, my point being, why not just forgive. :( Why develop it into a word war. :( Whine whine why.

And i think I complain a lot more recently. Ah, probable due to the greediness instilled in me. the yearning of more, so many unnecessary wants unfulfilled, source of my complains. Have been going "I want to this and that" a lot more than in the past too. :( i want to feel content, just like the contentment i had back when I was in SGH.

life's great, i should stop complaining, but i am feeling no kick. :(

Friday, January 06, 2012

amused at how first and second world is differentiated., and that there is fourth class. 

amused at how people jump at new technologies, technology is changing, and i am getting tired of switching from one social network to another. facebook, twitter, google plus (which glad-fully i didn't use at all) and recently path. 

amused at how social networking has played a part at outcasting. 

maybe i should try going offline for a 24 hours one day. everything is virtual and I'm tired of it.

Saturday, December 31, 2011

22 May 2011 - Updated Day 6 and Day 7 together! ^^

anyway, here's the link for the TW trip
Day 1
Day 2
Day 3
Day 4
Day 5 
Day 6 
Day 7

Saturday, September 03, 2011

birthdays birthdays more birthdays. 
lazy to make cards now. :/
thinking if i should buy or make a card next week. 
picky friend leh. hehe. 
maybe i should buy? hmmm. 

Let me worry about the gifts first.